I talk to you guys a lot about my IV meth addiction because that was my most recent struggle. But years before I ever stuck a needle in my arm I was a binge drinking pill head… pills got too expensive and I ended up turning to heroin. This photo was taken on my 23rd birthday weekend. The first day I ever did heroin. I … Continue reading From bad to worse
Why am I up at 1 am working on stepwork? Because after a really great friggin day and evening with my husband and our friend watching standup and just hanging out… I layed down perfectly happy to go to sleep and before I started to drift… my mind started to wander… and 5 wrong turns later I found myself planning a “hypothetical relapse plan of … Continue reading Feeling Triggered? Take a STEP back… CHILL & process. Then proceed with caution.
Music is my saving grace… but tonight I experienced something I didnt expect. A song came on my playlist [ do I wanna know – arctic monkeys] because it used to be one of my favorite songs. I loooove the arctic monkeys… like love love love… and this song just so happened to be one of my favorites at a pretty dark time in my … Continue reading Musical Trigger
If you are one of my friends from my dope days and you’re reading this and still in active addiction ive got 3 things to say to you. Please understand where I’m coming from and know that I’ll never ever judge you… because I was there too. 1. Please Do NOT dm me asking to party, sell me drugs, looking for drugs, looking for a … Continue reading To all my friends still struggling with addiction:
Since I’ve hit my 5 month mark… I figured I’d share a bit of my progress. The top 3 photos are all taken last year from like jan – august top left is nye 2018 middle is at one of my lowest points…note trackmarcks and bruises on my neck… and the right top corner was taken the week before I decided to get clean. The … Continue reading SOBRIETY UPDATE – 5 MONTHS 2 DAYS 🙂
I’d like to start before this letter by stating first and foremost that I do not blame you guys, or any of your short comings for my addiction. Before reading this I need you to know that this, my life, where/how i ended up was NOT your fault. My choices and my actions were all my own. Secondly, I want you to know that I … Continue reading Dear Mom & Dad
Jail Broke How to NOT fall apart if your person gets incarcerated. A few handy tips for the Ride or Die Bitch Intro: If you clicked on this then chances are you have found yourself in a situation where all of the sudden all life’s expenses and problems are suddenly all on you because OH SH!T your other half has gotten themselves in trouble with … Continue reading Jail Broke
A few things my camper renovation rehab project has taught me: 1.you dont NEED a man … BUT sometimes it’s super awesome to have your dad around to offer a helping hand. 2. If you’re unsure if something will fit. Measure it. Ya got that? Did u write it down? No? Measure it again. Are you using a real tape measure or just your arms … Continue reading Things I’ve learned in renovation rehab.